i posted this on tumblr too

i think ima post on tumblr too, but im too lazy to write in two seperate blogs, so ima just post the same thing on both from now on. here is what i posted there:

its been a long time since i posted here. i feel like fucking shit. ive never been this sick for so long in a while. my eyes hurts, throat hurts, head hurts, my entire body is sore. especially 6th period, i couldnt hide it as well. hilary kept tapping me and asking whats wrong, and i told her im perfectly fine im just tired. but she didnt believe me. at all. the whole time, she kept saying "i know youre not okay, i can tell."

then when i try to pass it off, she gives me this look. what can i say to that? what can i honestly say?

later, i was walking around, away from friends, thinking i needed some alone time. then soyoung came and waved, and walked with me, even a little, and you know what...it felt really good. i was wrong, i didnt need alone time. i just needed to talk...even just small talk. she asked if i was okay. i said, yah i am, dont worry about it. i dont think she believed me. sigh.

FUCK man i need to...okay i dont know. i just feel so fucking weak, and i cant do shit about it.

thank you everyone for talking with me today. somewhere deep down, i needed it.